Saturday 17 Jul 2010 8.21pm

i am very upset and feel dishearted the past 2 weeks...i cried very often the past few months. And i cried badly the whole afternoon today... i cried bcos i am thinking of him...i really miss him badly...i thg i can let go but the truth is i cant, that why i cried.

Whenever i think of him, i will hide in my room and cried. I learn to hide my feeling but its just out of control now...i do not know how to control my emotion over him... I love him too much and being hurt too deeply and badly.

I am suffering in great pain that no one know...and no one can help me... i feel so stupid and silly of myself.

He dont love me anymore but i still cannot accept the fact...i really miss him. God please save me, save me from this misery. My heart is in great great pain.

Days without you - 12May2010

It's going to rain soon... I still feel sad n lost... I really miss him badly...
My eye keep tearing today when I m working... Cos I m thinking of him,
thinking why he left me, thinking why only leave me after we have been
together for almost 6yrs... Thinking why only tell me now that we have no
common topic... Why? Why now... What does our 6 yrs relationship mean
to you? I trusted you but you abandoned this relationship... U gave up on me so
easily.... I m deeply hurt by you... I have to hide myself at a corner to cry... Weep
under my blanket in the night... I really miss you and want you back... But you
chose not to give me one more chance n left me...

I m so miserable again today..... The pain is getting from bad to worse...

Days without you...11 May 2010

Dear Z^^^, 

I know that i m making u very irritating these few days... that why u asked me to stop all my nonsense... I m truly sorry and you never scolded me like this before, this is the first time and I guess is also the last time...Just wan to let u know that those msg that I wrote to you earlier are all my true feelings and thoughts except for the last one which "I congrats u"... I m seriously not picking on you or suspecting this or that.... I wrote this wrong msg cos I have gone crazy n chose the wrong method to face the truth. I know u dun love anymore, and I m dragging it cos I cannot accept the truth that u dun love me and leave me. 

It's not easy for me... and I still love you and think of you everyday n whereever I go... when we r together, you made me feel that I m the most "xin fu" woman in this world. And I want to be by ur side and spend the rest of the life with you. Bcos I know u r not ready n stress, so i dare not tell u my thought to add burden to u by telling more things like what I want to stress u even more. 

I only know that so long that we r together i feel contented n happy n be a simple woman behind ur back to support u. I m so silly, right? I have lost many things in life after u left me, i lost the most important person in my life and yes is you, i lost all my feelings, lost my laughter, lost my cheerful smile and misplaced my heart...i have lost confidence in myself, lost confidence in everything, have no faith in life...i have lost my courage to move on and lost the courage to face you again...i am so miserable and very sad.

U left me for a reason... And I can only blame myself for being so childish, naive, nv tell u my thought n kept everything to myself and keep quarrelling with you... Most importantly is that I dun know how to cherish you... and really is my misfortune not to have you.

Until u left me, I feel lost, empty n meaningless in life... I m so silly to understand now that I have not treat you well enough... My only regret in life is never treat u even better, nv cherish you, nv comunicate with you and tell u my thought n feeling... nv make you and ourself feel happy when we are together...

I really miss you, misses the days when we eat/shop in hk and holding ur hand when both of us r frighten by the turbulence, miss watching you playing ps3, miss ur smile, voice, laughter n serious look, miss ur creativity, passion in fashion n design, miss the days with you... I really miss you... I know u dun love me anymore but deep in my heart I still love you..... and always will... 

Love you always, Carrie.

Days without you...

It has been quite a while...the days without you is greatly miserable...remember the days we used to be together...knowing all your good and bad characters...memories are everywhere whereever i go...

it is not easy for me to let go...but you have made a decision and you have chose to let go this relationship... to you it may be a peaceful separation...but its not for me...i love you deeply and you will never know and understand how deeply you have hurt me...it hurt even more deeply than what you are experiencing now...it easy for you to move n but its not for me...

We have been together for almost 6 yrs and You have used a short few weeks to determine whether are suitable and told me we have nothing in common...then what have we done for the past 6 yrs..... does it mean nothing to you.

Please stop saying that its has been a wonderful memories and stop saying thank you for everything...it really hurts me... i have nv love someone as much as i love myself....i love you more than i love myself....

still remember the first time you hold my hand...you told me that "at this moment i started to hold ur hand and i will nv let go ur hand"..but in the end you still leave me and let go me...... do u really feel that we have no good future???

after so many weeks....i still misses you and dare not step into town...i still dont know how to control myself if i happen to meet you...i am so scared,

Tears keep falling everyday, every moments...and i still love you.

Bintan Trip - Jan 2009

Christmas celebration 2008

Check out this website!

Have come across this website and find that they have nice and stylish stuff...like Uniqolo, Beams etc... bought a few items from them and services are good.

So if you are looking for great stuff, do check out this website http://www.fashionbambi.blogspot.com/

Anna Sui Comestic

Decided to try Anna Sui products, so have purchased their eye brow powder & eye liner...

Nice color & special casing...

Dior Homme

Dior Homme Red Key Pouch... bought this nice red color to replace my old one...weee!!!

Yohji Yamamoto-Y's skirt

Bought this Y's skirt in HK.....

Take a look at this T-shirt and make a guess of this character...

If your guess is Mickey....oops...you got it wrong...wahaha

scroll down to look for answer...